Monday, January 28, 2013

a day at home

I didn't feel fantastic today, or yesterday. Or the day before that.. but that's alright:) just means I stay home!
I decided to go on facebook. Now for the record, I'm not all that huge of a fan of facebook. People just post silly things sometimes, and then other times, I really miss people. And lately I've been missing my shotgun girl.

This is my Jasmine. She and I have a wonderful relationship. We might be over 700 miles apart, but we're still the best of friends. It's been a long time since I've seen her.. But that's alright we've got enough memories to get us through. She's even more grown up and beautiful now since I saw her last July. She's got a job, wanting to go on a mission, boyfriend. All that fun stuff. And she's got new friends, and so do I. But we're still best friends at heart. Honestly, that's what matters most.

Thank you Jaz, for all you ever do. You're wonderful and amazing<3 Stay strong! I love you!!

Always, your bluejeans,

Thursday, January 24, 2013

thoughts from the heart

so, this post today may be a little different than usual. I guess I've just had a lot of things on my mind lately, and I figured I'd write.
BYU-I has yet to contact me. A few of my friends have heard back already and I am patiently waiting.. or trying to. I'm excited and nervous for college! It's new and fun, but also kind of intimidating. I hope I do well.. And I wonder when I'll go to school! If I go sometime in January, I most likely will defer it for my mission. If I go in August, I'll go for a semester, then defer the next. I can't believe everything is so close and around the corner!
Umm I'm beginning/mid show right now. It's not terrible. I don't mind so much. I just need to continue working on keeping my mouth shut! Someone pointed out today, and it was a good reminder, she's the director. Just do as she says:) sometimes, it's just hard to remember that. I'll keep working. But it's been okay. My part is kind of funny! I like going after school too. Helps to feel like part of the cast. I do admit, it'll be nice not to have rehearsal on Saturday! I'll need the break.
My hair exploded today. I looked like Merida from Brave. But hey! She's a princess, so it works for me:)
Oh okay, so I love to photograph, but I'm not like all that fond of my photography. I feel like I have a ton to learn, and it's hard because I'm not super creative. I don't have a style yet. I love to photograph kids, and I love when people {{teen girls especially}} love their photos. I like to make people happy:) so it's nice when they feel pretty. So sorry that I haven't posted photos this week.. I just don't like them a lot.. If I do ever like any, I'll be sure to post them.
I don't have much homework tonight. Actually none at all! Just study study study!
I'm nervous for my mission.. I don't know. Just am..
Sorry, this next part will be kind of serious. It's just on my mind.
I'm not perfect. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, things no one will ever understand. Repentance has been especially difficult at times, but I've made it through and will continue to make it through. It's still hard sometimes. But things have been especially great lately! I guess it's just taken time. Sorry that's really vague! haha I don't know how to explain it! I'm just grateful for the Lord, for my Savior, for the Atonement, and for the people God has blessed me with.
I love to serve. everyone. ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE! No matter what the circumstances. Sure I do a lot, but I wouldn't change that for the world.
I know I don't make sense. Life is crazy, I am crazy! SO CRAZY! haha but I'm still me:)

sorry it's random! I hope you are doing wonderfully:) Loves! <3

Monday, January 14, 2013

live and learn

so I have to admit, I feel that I have a lot of work to do on my photography. I want to go to school to be a photographer some day. I believe that my specialty is children, but I would like to learn to be more creative in all aspects. so here are my photos for each day of week one and two. not the best, but maybe it will give you a little insight to my life. and hopefully I can get more creative shots as the year progresses! :)

 Jan. 1 {{today}}
today was the last day of winter vacation. which therefore consisted of laying around in my pajamas all day and not wearing my glasses. I took this to kind of show that everything gets so fuzzy when I can't see, except my vision is like a thousand million times worse. hahahha oh well:)

Jan. 2 {{something new}}
mom replaced my poor worn out old gray TOMS with new gray ones! (yes those were originally they were originally the same color! hahah obviously it was time to retire :(

  Jan. 3 {{heart}}
 this is not only one of my favorite childhood books of all time, but the book that Nathan and I share. every word comes from the heart<3


 Jan 4 {{the view from here}}
my friday nights for.. i don't remember how long:) have consisted of driving (well Nathan driving) to the field of dreams and watching adult softball. it's actually been fun! cold and all:) this is typically my view because I refuse to sit inside by myself. it's scary!!

Jan 5 {{movement}}
odd photo for movement, I know. but my brother and I had about 12 minutes to wrap all of these presents. moving that fast deserved the photo for the day;)

 Jan. 6 {{mine}}
my testimony has grown a lot in this past year. I know the power of repentance and I am so grateful for the Atonement. I love the Spirit and always want him to be my companion. I am grateful for all I have.

Jan. 7 {{street}}
thought this was pretty cool. unique:)

Jan. 8 {{something beginning with 'T'}}

Jan. 8 {{paper}}
This is my reminder board in my room: door, clothes pin, tape. all of the important things to remember go here.

Jan. 10 {{one o'clock}}
lunch every day with these crazy kids! haha:)

Jan. 11 {{water}}
I am growing poppy flowers! needed 3 table spoons of water, so I got this shot:)

Jan. 12 {{surprise}}

Jan. 13 {{circle}}
I received my young womanhood recognition medallion for completing personal progress, which is a series of experiences and projects corresponding with 8 values: Faith, Divine Nature, Individual Worth, Knowledge, Choice and Accountability and Virture :)

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012 & 2013

2012 was definitely not the easiest year for me. being honest here. but whatever. life moves on! there are of course the sweet moments, the happy ones, but that's what's on the rest of this blog. today I want to talk about 2013! because looking forward and up is soo much BETTER than looking back.

so that's that. 2013. Things I'm looking forward to:
finding out if I made it into BYUI! crossing my fingers!
MISSION PAPERS! yes. please. but I'm scheduling my interview with the bishop when I find out about college. that's what I've decided.
graduation. enough said.
that's about it for now! haha I'm keeping it simple. or trying to.

Some goals:
drink 3 glasses of water each day (I have these 16 ounce cups I drink from. I think that'll be good for me)
enjoy the last show!
make the most of my family time.
be closer to my Heavenly Father.
smile more, worry less.
be happy!
and take a photograph of something every day! I have a schedule for this month:) what I've decided is that since I'm obviously reaaally bad at updating, I will post the photos every sunday for the week. tell a little about my life, and hopefully this will be something people might enjoy!

here's my photo schedule
I'm very excited actually! hopefully it goes well, and maybe it will go throughout the whole year!

2012 is past and 2013 is the future. If I keep walking forward I know I'll make it.

loves always<3